Tuesday, September 24, 2013

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YES YES YES,
I AM VERY2 STRESSFUL WITH MY OWN STUPID LIFE!!!
WHEN I OPEN MY EYES,
I SEE ALL MY PROBLEM ARE RUNNING TOWARDS ME!
EACH DAY THEY WILL COME NEARER AND NEARER.... :|
" Hey problem , will u be my friend?  "
I WISH I CAN SAY THIS TO ALL MY PROBLEM...
ya ,ppl often say that I am such a negative-thinker type of person!
ya,its true!
if i have any problem with a person ,
i will settle it as fast as possible if i can...
but this time...
i was confused with my own self...
because I , I  just don't know what to do!!
this is the WORST part of me!
Hatred ?
haha....this is much worst !!!
when I say, I don't like one things,it mean for forever I won't like it!!
It is so damn hard for me to change,that hatred to something that is positive!
PATIENCE, THAT IS ALL I CAN DO WHEN I HAVE TO FORCED MYSELF TO CONFRONTED WITH PEOPLE THAT IS OUTSIDE MY HOUSE....
ONE STEP MY FEET, GO OUT FROM MY HOUSE,
I FEEL LIKE I JUST WANT TO STAY AT MY HOUSE AND JUST STAY IN MY HOUSE TILL I DEATH!
BECAUSE I FEEL WHEN I AM STAYING AT HOME,
THERE IS NO PPL THAT ARE ABLE TO DISTURB ME N OF COURSE IN MY HOUSE THERE IS NO PERSON THAT I HATE....
YES YES,I WILL LOVE ALL MY FAMILY...NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN...
THAT'S WHY I FEEL I AM BETTER WHEN MY FAMILY IS AROUND ME....
PEOPLE SAY,IF U ARE SAD,TELL SOMEONE THAT IS CLOSE TO U N THAT CAN UNDERSTAND U WELL....BUT FOR ME,I THINK THERE IS NO ONE OUT THERE ,THAT are trying to UNDERSTAND ME WELL....
BECAUSE PEOPLE OUT THERE HAVE THEIR STRONG PERCEPTION THAT I AM SUCH A NEGATIVE-THINKER PERSON AND MAYBE THEY THINK IF I TELL THEM BOUT WHAT I REALLY FELT,I WON'T ACCEPT THEIR ADVICE...
HAIHHH......
NEVER MIND,BECAUSE I KNOW NOW ,NO ONE NEEDS ME IN THEIR LIFE...
YOU MAY SEE N THINK THAT I AM SUCH A SMILING TYPE OF GIRL,BUT YOU NEVER KNOW THAT IS INSIDE " I AM DYING !" 
YES ,dying...


I just wish happiness will find me soon...
may god bless you all...

~ I really2 need someone that is always sincerely really
care bout me ,in no matter what condition I'm in....someone that easily won't hurt me
with their act...someone that are willing to give 100% effort
to understand me...
someone that will never want to leave me....and someone that is always
be patience with my worst attitude...and someone
that can handle me
well when I am totally sad and when I am in my worst condition....
but I think someone like this would never come to me ,
because I am not deserve to be with someone like this...because I am not really good enough~

Nothing else i can say...
btw,thx for reading.....
Goodbye....
Have a nice day everyone.....

Saturday, September 14, 2013

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Gotta Go My Own Way


I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us doesn’t seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
It’s hard to say, but I’ve gotta do what’s the best for me
You’ll be okay....

I’ve got to move on and be who I am
I just don’t belong here; I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way..


Don’t wanna leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up and watch them all fall every time
Another color turns to grey,
And it’s just to hard to watch it all slowly fade away
I’m leavin’ today ’cause I’ve gotta do what’s the best for me
You’ll be okay….


I gotta leave, but I’ll miss you....
So,
I’ve got to move on and be who I am...
I just don’t belong here; I hope you understand..
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I wanna go my own way
I’ve got to move on and be who I am..
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way....


~I will always be with you as long as u let me ,my dear only  FFL<3

Iwillalwaysloveyou 344<3


No matter what will happen,life must go on :')


I still have little hope that u will exist in my future someday...

if god wills :)


" Every cloud has a silver lining "


Thx for reading~